Now this is going to come as no surprise to anyone who knows me well, but I daydream a lot. I always have done. My first conscious daydream that I can remember involved me battling the Wicked Witch of the West along side Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz. I was about six at the time.
Nowadays I tend to daydream about TV shows I've watched or movies I've seen, whatever captures my imagination. (I know that some of you out there are going to be looking down your noses at the grown woman who's freely admitted to daydreaming, but to hell with you I say. I had to stop playing imaginary games when I was eleven/twelve, I'm not giving this up.) But now there is a fly in the ointment. Mary Sue's stopping me from enjoying my daydreams.
Now I'm going to have to take a little detour for those of you unfamilar with the weird and wonderful world of fanfiction. Fanfiction is stories, written by fans about the shows, films, books etc they're into. (An example of good fanfiction would be -
Letters and Papers from Prison) Mary Sue in the simplest terms is an original character who is perfect. She's beautiful, talented, charming and normally the focal point for the plot. Which is why a lot of people don't like reading Mary Sue fic's. (There are quite a few who quite enjoy them, and there is, believe or not, a Mary Sue Appreciation Society) For more on Mary Sue read here -
here.
So my problem with Mary Sue is that I want to avoid her - in my fanfiction. And to this end I've read lots of very good articles on how to recognise her, and how to avoid her. Only all this kowledge is seeping into my daydreams., which unfortunate as it's all the things that makes Mary Sue bad, that makes a daydream enjoyable. It's frustrating when your mind starts trying to edit out Mary Sue charateristics from your dreamself - a persona that by definition should not be realistic. Daydreams are inherently fantastical and ego-centric.
So Mary Sue Killed my Dreams, and I want them back - there are worlds to be saved out there.